i get more done this way.
I decided about a year ago that I had to make a choice. I’d spent a long time defining myself by who and what I wasn’t, by what I wasn’t going to do and by the job I used to have. When I thought about how I described what I was doing now, it was never really all that positive, clear or present. I realized that changing how I saw and spoke about my place in the world would effect how I smiled and said hey. Hey! I still have to catch myself, but I’m so much happier.
I started writing my annual list of determinations about 3 years ago as a part of my Buddhist practice. It challenged me to more actively participate in this thing called my life. Somehow, I thought that if I just let my future kinda happen to me that I wouldn’t be as disappointed by not getting the things I wanted. (♥:You know that never really works, right?) Yep.
So, I’ve got a list. I’m a Virgo with all kinds of lists. And I am still a good person if things shift to the next year. Because, most likely, the work continues.
It’s been interesting to look back at what I thought was important. I’ve seen things change, expand and disappear from the list. And I’ve seen the things big and small that have just kinda happened. From quitting smoking to treating myself more kindly to becoming a better friend.
So here are a bunch for twentyten from the big list that I plan to keep with me as encouragement to stay unstuck.
I am determined to…
Do what I’m good at and do it enough to get better. Get on with the get better part.
Do what I say I’m going to do. Especially, if I’m the only one holding me accountable for my actions or inaction.
Start somewhere. Anywhere.
Eat better. And that begins with breakfast.
Champion & Support. Look for it. Find it. If I like it, then talk about it.
Just let it go… especially if worrying about what someone else thinks keeps me from being me.
Keep smiling and have fun.
Stay curious and compassionate.
How are you determined to move forward in 2010?
Nikki♥